Mother's Day

I think what I need to do is have no expectations at all, ever, about anything. Then there is no way for me to be disappointed. Am I selfish? Do I not appreciate things? Whatever it is I need to shake it and move on. I just need to vent first.....Mother's Day morning 2006 - I rise very early and can not go back to sleep because my hubby is snoring by my side, loudly. So I go downstairs and get the paper and make coffee and sit on my couch and read. It is nice and I think he will rise soon and make my breakfast. Alas that was not the case, he rose and said "why did you get up so early?" Then he said "we need to talk about money" my most non-favorite topic in the world, so we talked about money endlessley and then it was time to take hockey son to practice - yes on Mother's Day. So I made my own piece of toasted bead with cheese melted on it and off I went. Practice was good because no one bugged me and I got to knit. Then it was home to what I thought would be lunch but no, there was no lunch. So I made myself a sandwich and then the boys bugged me to go fishing which I really didn't want to do but they were standing there with their poles and looking at me like fishing would be the very best thing in the whole universe. What's a Mom to do, so we wnt fishing all afternoon. Then it was home to what I thought would be a great meal which I didn't have to cook. Wrong again, I made the burger patties, and cooked them along with the steak and baked potato I bought when I went to the store.

Now the boys did get me a gift certificate to Borders and John bought me some book by an author I never read as if I have the time to read. I barely have the time to type this, the boys are around not doing what they are supposeed to at this very minute so I have to go and crack the whip. You know I have been married for almost 18 years, do you think by now hubby would get that what I really want is to be taken care of for one day. To not have to do the taking care of others, just one day. I hear quiet NEVER a good sign.