Easter

Well it is almost Easter, our family is going to my Mom's and wonder of wonders we are actually having family. My two cousins and their spouses are both coming, this should be different and fun. I don't think we have had a family type of holiday since I was little. I don't count the ones we celebrated with my husband's family because they were more like hell than a holiday, my mother-in-law is the devil.

There has been something going on with me and my emotions. I know what it is of course, my daughter's birthday is coming up. Actually it falls on Easter this year, two days after my second son's birthday. I feel so sad and like crying all the time, I still miss her every day and no one understands. No one even remembers her at all. I guess it is normal for other people to forget her, it doesn't affect their life so why should they remember her? But my husband doesn't remember her birthday either. He doesn't talk about her or anything. My Mom doesn't my Sister, no one. It sucks, I just still wish she was here.